sleepless

it's really frustrating when you're feeling tired and just want to catch a good night sleep - but you can't. the pillow's all wrong, it's too hot, then it's too cold. last night was like that to me. for some reason after those circumstanses can't relax myself but I get so wound-up by all the little things that it's impossible to sleep. it's really frustrating when you get frustrated in yourself. but for tonight I have a new plan. I'm going to go out for a run / cycling before I go to beed. that way, all my energy is gone and I have no choice but to pass out. sounds good right? I've been thinking of drinking too, but this is much cheaper way. little more boring, but cheaper is the key. we'll call alcohol plan b. and before you contact any authorities, it was a joke.

this week starts pretty easy for us. today it's going to be 2 hours of lectures about giving birth and nurturing the child. awesome. it's quite funny to see that this area is so new to everyone, and maybe even close to somenone (like me). we begin our practice in few months and hopefully I'll get some confidince in me. "do not drop the baby, do not drop the baby...". our teacher said, that all the guys who work with infants for the very first time, they handle them like they're the most fragile thing in the world, and weighin a ton. I can imagine myself there lifting a baby like it was a piano. but practice makes you handle things well. I've learned that through practice. bazinga. if any mom should read this, I'd be glad to hear your thoughts on the matter.

next weekend taru will come to visit and it's going to be kick-ass! she's going to teach me all the things she knows about photography and phtoshopping (although she doesn't know it yet, but I'm such a good cook she can't resist).

silentium est aureum. but no, it doesn't apply here so feel free to comment.