friday!

today it's friday! we survived the week and the weekend will be kick-ass. my friend taru (the photgrapher) is coming over and we'll be taking a lot of pictures this weekend! unfortunately it's raining at the moment, but hopefully the sky will clear soon. I'm sure we'll have a blast.

funny thing happened wednesday. I had the chem 101 at the university and I actually understood something! it was an amazing feeling when there was this difficult calculation (not difficult for the pros but for me) and the formula was new to me. but I managed to get it right! finally I understand what my old math teacher used to say about feeling good after solving a good puzzle. oh yeah.

the next three days will be full of chilling out and snapping photos. see you guys later. bazinga.

ps. answer the poll at the end of the page if you want me to keep on writing english or if you want me to start writing in finnish.

the beginning of an era.

today it begins. the first classes of my preparation course for medschool. I'm freaking out a bit, but in a good way. it feels like you raise the bar for yourself. you know you can't get over at the time, but eventually you will get over it. and when that happens - it's time to take it up a noch. the subject for this fall is chemistry. gotta love it.

yesterday we had this great day at school. we're all going to practice at the end of the year to different places of pediatric medicine. infants mostly, so a good way to handle the practice is to know how to handle an infant. we did just that, but not with real babies ofcourse, we trained with dolls. anyways, it was great. I could see that everyone, even us guys, took it seriously and focused on what we were doing. and I guess the girls found it heartwarming to see us taking care of the dolls: changin diapers, giving them baths, changing clothes etc. the best part for me was in the evening when lindas cousin and her family came over and they had their 7month old baby-boy with them. ofcourse I had to put the theory into practice and I practiced my skills with a real baby. it was quite nice to see that the things we've been teached the pass weeks have somehow implanted on my brain and I knew actually quite a lot about the babys development so far. awesome.

but anyways, I'll keep on freaking out and try to find the good ol' calculator and remember the basics of chemistry before I jump in with the big fish. bazinga.

sleepless

it's really frustrating when you're feeling tired and just want to catch a good night sleep - but you can't. the pillow's all wrong, it's too hot, then it's too cold. last night was like that to me. for some reason after those circumstanses can't relax myself but I get so wound-up by all the little things that it's impossible to sleep. it's really frustrating when you get frustrated in yourself. but for tonight I have a new plan. I'm going to go out for a run / cycling before I go to beed. that way, all my energy is gone and I have no choice but to pass out. sounds good right? I've been thinking of drinking too, but this is much cheaper way. little more boring, but cheaper is the key. we'll call alcohol plan b. and before you contact any authorities, it was a joke.

this week starts pretty easy for us. today it's going to be 2 hours of lectures about giving birth and nurturing the child. awesome. it's quite funny to see that this area is so new to everyone, and maybe even close to somenone (like me). we begin our practice in few months and hopefully I'll get some confidince in me. "do not drop the baby, do not drop the baby...". our teacher said, that all the guys who work with infants for the very first time, they handle them like they're the most fragile thing in the world, and weighin a ton. I can imagine myself there lifting a baby like it was a piano. but practice makes you handle things well. I've learned that through practice. bazinga. if any mom should read this, I'd be glad to hear your thoughts on the matter.

next weekend taru will come to visit and it's going to be kick-ass! she's going to teach me all the things she knows about photography and phtoshopping (although she doesn't know it yet, but I'm such a good cook she can't resist).

silentium est aureum. but no, it doesn't apply here so feel free to comment.

just your everyday.

oh right, the new blog. maybe the correct thing at this point would be to introduce myself. I'm chuck (name changed). I live in a small sleepy town called Kokkola, Finland. this is my hometown. I live with my fiancé linda and with a 6month old puppy dog linus. I'm currently studying nursing. yeah, a male nurse. all of you who find that  amusing: grow up, for pete's sake! and this blog is not for your entertainment. it's for my frustration. an exhaust pipe if I may.. but if someone finds this blog intresting, feel free to read on and comment on things. more details will be revealed! 

it's hard to write anything. nothing comes to mind, but I still force myself doing so. as I go on words like sunday, dog, dinner, sleep and rest come to mind. they all are combined in my daily routine for today. the last two I like doing very much, because I'm so fantastic in bed (haha / finnish humor). no seriously, I am...

the morning kicked in too soon - as always. my lovely girlfriend (fiancé, because otherwise she'll give me a hard time) woke me up and said it's 9 am. or something like that. the first 3-4 sentences I hear in the mornings are like japanese to me. you hear it, you regognise it - but you just don't get it. I just decided to take the dog out and do long walk. which was the best idea yet today. woke me up for sure.


tomorrow it's monday. I don't like mondays. don't know why, they are just bleak to me. but next week will be different. only a few days of school. except there's this one major thing. my preperation class for medicine school begins on wednesday. oh the good ol' chemistry kicks in, as well as cellular biology, physics and maths. all the things that I thought I had perfectly escaped from. but no. next there will be like 10000 people more smarter than me trying to get into the same school as me, but I'll try to get smarter. I have the advantage of actually being involved with patients, drugs and human anatomy before. and if I get in, it'll take me only 6 years to become a doctor. the yhear 2018 will change the course of mankind! well, who knows, I'll just be a doctor. bazinga.


peace out.